090118

Heart ripped Seams split It seems I've slipped into the wave Drawn under by the current Rushing rushing Faster than the tears could possibly spill from my frozen face Pained with the parting I'm not sure who is shaking Bodies wracked by sobs Her or me Him or me I just know we have become … Continue reading 090118

082218

We went to another funeral today. Arriving, the wails filled the air Grief in tears streaming down their faces. Only 18, too soon. Hundreds gathered to mourn, their bodies surging together to the beat of the drums. Slowly faces lighten and cries turn to song and dance - but again reality hits and another must … Continue reading 082218

081718

Plans changed Futures rearranged Obedience over sacrifice, so I sing to you to show me how - when what I want doesn't match your will before me.

072018

Almost a year to the day of when my son would have tasted his first breaths did I taste mine when I gave you my life to use and to redeem from my shame-stained, miserable memories of a broken past Aching to see your hands. Now we are four years later and it just now … Continue reading 072018

The Kingdom is in the Crown

the Kingdom is in the Crown is about ME. It's about YOU. And it's continued to change my life over the past nine months ; my prayer is it will change yours, too.

My Name is Jerusalem

A couple months ago, after learning about Nehemiah in class, I was convicted to commit to rebuilding a city. I didn’t know how, I didn’t know where and I didn’t know when - but I knew in my spirit the task was mine. A few weeks after, having prayed for any clarity on the subject, … Continue reading My Name is Jerusalem

Do You Love Her ?

“Do you love her ? There’s forgiveness, but do you love the Corrie that made those choices ?” With a searing crash, I stopped dead in my tracks. My mind spun out of control in an instant and I broke, falling into Trish’s arms. “No one has ever asked me that before. I didn’t know … Continue reading Do You Love Her ?

The Power of Three Words

It seems there is no middle-ground for how much we say the words “I love you” - either it is overused or hidden deep within the cockles of our been-hurt-too-much hearts.

Where do you stand ?

101918

The days grow near to union Yet my soul still cries out to my babies sand between their toes bean toots and posso thorns, berries new tick balls, ripped clothes Early morning sounds that defied reason and nature Yet I long to return. Is it for me or me for it ? Do I just … Continue reading 101918

091718

I don't have to agree But what is this response that isn't me ? Passive Aggressive Non-confrontational That's not me Cast it off Break the agreements So that I may give what I have And not scrape blindly At what I do not

091618

All of a sudden it's real And I couldn't be happier Also the snail. What life is birthed In sweet union of spirits kissed Yes yes yes I'll never change my answer Mountaintop moments Memories that will last as long as my breath Body shaking A simple question My heart longed to answer for so … Continue reading 091618

091518

A week gone by and still it grips me with talons of wrath, misdirected at the only ones willing to turn all upside down. I reject guilt, but mourn the possibility of burning a bridge to my frist babies to live. So many things to ponder, yet I find myself busying my every moment in … Continue reading 091518

090618

"How did you know ?" I ponder the question, rolling it around in my hand like I do Posso to cool it down. How do I know ? Is he who he says he is ? Does he believe it ? Does he see you are a shining diamond ? Does he believe it beyond … Continue reading 090618

090518

Another day There's always something special I suppose the breath in my lungs is it today That and the warm showers While short lived They are nonetheless invigorating Which is good, because I'm doubting everything today. My joy is hiding Because I doubt

090418

All work and no play I don't remember the end But I remember it was boring Pool and fish and chips and sun A little bit of whiskey to get the job done Grateful for friends but not distance between Hard to imagine I'll be with so many so soon I feel aimless toay and … Continue reading 090418

090318

Temper tantrum, 28 Got my way but don't feel great My flesh overtook the spirit of grace Now I'm hesitant to show my face Shame shame, go away You're a lie, you have no say A repentant heart s what I give So you can help me better live.